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The Plunge

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From the slightly elitist primary and secondary school background, where I struggled to keep up academically and socially, my life took a steep and frightening plunge when I graduated from university, barely passing my exams with a third class honors to a UK law degree. And yes, I read my law degree in the United Kingdom. The scalding shame I dealt to my parents.....How did I come crashing down so spectacularly? Now that I am in my 40s, I accept the full responsibility for my laziness, lack of discretion, hubris and folly that led to that dramatic plunge. Truly, pride comes before a fall.  Hubris was the very air I breathed. Like all proud people, I was simultaneously painfully insecure and woefully arrogant about my scant abilities and achievements.  Having grown up very insecure and constantly looking for external validation, I hoped majoring in law would earn me the approval I craved from my mother. Long before my mother accepted Christ, our family was fraught with...
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The Dessert

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The Dessert by Henri Matisse The Blue Window by Henri Matisse The Table by Sandra Oost
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His Name is Jesus

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He was a beautiful man standing in the shadow. A heavy scarlet robe wrapped around his thin frail body. His long and lovely face was downcast and a crazy mesh of thorns was twisted around his head. I sat quietly in the school sanctuary, not comprehending what was going on. Today, for the first time, we the kindergarten 2 class had the opportunity to go to the sanctuary. Although I do not vividly recall seeing a picture of Jesus, the aforementioned image of Him filled my mind as a child. Seeing Him gave me a strange sense of assurance that this Man understood the petty turmoil of my childish heart, and the graver concerns of growing up in a household whose values are mostly contrary to His own. This was my first encounter with Jesus Christ, in a kindergarten for which I will always be grateful - Canossian Convent Kindergarten at Jalan Merbok The presence of Jesus continued with me until I went to primary school. As my school performance was miserable, my mother thought I ought t...
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